Don't feel like going training nowadays. Prolly cos I don't feel a need.. I know I need to train for next year, but maybe its just some part of me rejecting the training.
However, Every training I'll get perked up somehow. So maybe I shan't worry. But sometimes I really think, I ain't got business with this, why should I? Maybe Vivian has the same thoughts lol. But I already adapted these thoughts like since June. I know I won't make it this time.
Lol I haven't finish learning my damned chengyu. Whatever lah. Lol.
Anyway you 'chers have been trying to say some sense into us or something.. But have I really every said anything about it? I "don't really care" in that sense that if I don't get in, I won't get really sad and crazy but I won't stop trying either. This is what I mean by I don't care. Not that I don't care and I give up on myself and GG. That's super retarded.
Okay byebye.